No need to apologize, that's exactly the sort of response I needed to understand! I feel much more educated on the hermetic style of poetry. I definitely projected my own ideas onto your poem at first.

I definitely resonate with that feeling of the external world being lame and wanting to dissociate from it, and the loneliness/solitude/brooding that results.

And thank you for the very interesting new definition of hermetic as "air-tight" and "perfect seal," which warrants keeping things within and not sharing. I also resonate with that: I feel like I have to pretend to be "normal" (subdued) in most situations, so I keep the fun stuff (nerd things like philosophy) to myself.

My understanding of hermeticism (as a spirituality, not the branch of Italian poetry that you've just enlightened me about) is that it's about learning to be closer to God, to improve, to expand and grow from matter back to divinity. Maybe it starts with dejectedness, but I feel like it's a path of self-empowerment rather than just brooding.

Does the spirituality version relate to the poetry version in your eyes? How did you get so into hermetic poetry?

Thanks again for responding with such depth to my original comment :)